Sunday, October 26, 2003

life is at yet another all time low. im dis close to saying tt ive had enough. cos i really have. this year in retrospect has been a complete and downright failure. perhaps it is too early to say that with finality because there are just about two months left to our calendar year but as the academic year draws to a close, i think it seems quite appropriate that life gets a verbal thrashing from one of its victims: me.

ok i take that back. im no longer in the mood to rant and rave about how life is a f*cking b*tch. for some reason it gets tiring complaining about something that will never change no matter how much you attack it verbally or otherwise. and when the war weary face another battle.. it just looks so much easier to walk away. and thats precisely wad i feel like doing. sadly i cant walk away from life. cos thats equivalent to dying. and i cant die so soon, not before i completely and utterly fall flat on my face. so far im halfway there.

havent really accomplished much this year. havent gotten a single gold medal/trophy or wdv this whole year. just a whole buncha silvers and stuff. second here second there second everywhere. how fun. of course if you wanna talk about things within the classroom and school.. its a whole different matter. as you can see, my results are kinda loserish. okay fine, theyre very loserish. and highly depressing. im quite at a loss now, because im trying to cope with the fact that, well, in life there has to be people from different ends of the spectrum. how can there be anything as success when theres no concept of failure? how can there be winners if there are no losers? i leave it up to you to place yourself along that spectrum. i think ive found my spot. or rather, the spot found me.

I can think of younger days
When living for my life
Was everything a man could want to do
I could never see tomorrow
But I was never told about the sorrow

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?

How can you mend this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart
And let me live again

I can still feel the breeze
That rustles through the trees
And misty memories of days gone by
We could never see tomorrow
No one said a word about the sorrow

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?

And how can you mend this broken man?
(And how can you mend this broken man?)
How can a loser ever win?
(How can a loser ever win?)
Please help me mend my broken heart
And let me live again

how can you mend this broken man?
How can you mend?
How can a loser ever win?
How can you win
Please help me mend my broken heart
And let me live again
And let me live again

whee_

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Wednesday, October 22, 2003

for those who have been bitching abt how my results are good and i shouldnt bitch abt it etc. etc., i hope the following makes you happy:

SS: 48
A MATH: 38
E MATH: 46
PHYSICS: 54
CHEMISTRY: 55
HMT: 59
TOTAL AVG: 61.1 (B4)
TOTAL MSG: 4.3 (B4)


i hope everyone is satisfied now that i have failed three subjects and my avg has fallen by 17 mks and three whole grades. my year is ruined. both maths singlehandedly pulled down my avg by abt 6 marks. and abt phys.. 3R stole our thunder after moderation because alot of them who were B3's became A1's at 75.0, while my class, which was previously ranked above them had high A1s in the first place. tts why now their msg is lower. which of course, led me to theorising that the moderation wasnt for ppl lyk us who had failed, but for those f*ckers to raise their grades and maintain their straight A's.

yeah so back to my stupid life. yeah, my results are liddat. my total end of year incl CA's L1R5 is 15. my eoy avg is 65.8. and i still failed a math overall. and i got a pink form for ptm. i feel like a complete loser this year. i have the whole range of marks. from 80s, to 70's, to 50's, to 40'3 and even 30's. i have A1s, A2s, C5s, C6s, D7s, E8s, F9s. if ever anyone needs a morale booster, just come back to this blog and gloat. im done with trying to care for now. doesnt help me get any smarter.

maybe one of these days ill do an official reflection on the whole eoy. maybe. sigh.

whee_

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Sunday, October 19, 2003

hello bloggy dearest. how has it been, life without being typed into. im really sorry for being really so busy and all. i kinda lost my mood to blog with all tt business and stuff. exams have really been killing me alot. was a slave of my books for such a long time of a massive two and a half weeks that was pure torture. sigh. and guess wad, it didnt pay off. im really too lazy to type one helluva long en3 bitching about things so im just gonna display my current results here. i think its qt obvious how bloody disappointed i am with them so thats that.

ENGLISH : 80
LITERATURE : 72
GEOGRAPHY : 81
HALF HISTORY : 82
CURRENT AVG : 78.75
CURRENT MSG : 1.25

and just fyi for everyone, if i had gotten 82 for geog and 81 for eng, that is to say, one mark more for each subject, my overall will be an a1. so i missed two a1s by a whisker, yes. and i gave my all to geog summore, mugging it consistently thruout those 18+ days, sacrificing every other subject. looks lyk i have paid for it and will continue to pay.

tmr is malay and a math. malay prob a bad b and a math is a d in the bag. tues is worse. phys and chem, both prob cs and emath whichll be another c. my avg will plummet to a b4 for sure. oh well, too bad huh? ttz wad you get when ur born dumb. sigh.

whee_

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Friday, October 10, 2003

screwd up amath, chem, hist, ss, phys and geog. just a quik summary of my week so far. when i have time ill blog at length. promise..

whee_

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Thursday, October 02, 2003

frickin bz. niwae im glad to noe some ppl still blog and all, and its nice to know tt ppl still visit my blog. thanks all.. maybe ill rethink this whole thing and start blogging again after the exams.. ta!

whee_

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