Saturday, January 31, 2004

hey.

my blog has been violated again. this place, i have discovered yet again, isnt safe. and this is what i have got to say.

you think your so smart but you arent. you think youre so noble and righteous but you arent. encouraging him to drink is a jailable offence too ya noe, its called abetting a minor if im not wrong. but whatever, people like you probably think youre above the law. it makes me sick to think about it. i just cant find the words to describe this anymore. people like you and edward and the whole bunch of you ppl think tt you guys are all abt pupil development and all that shit but its really all about using the pupils to develop our salary. kae maybe tts more for ed n co. but anyway id just like to say tt you may think tt whatever you do, its the right thing but seriously, just cos you think its righ doesnt mean it really is.

but whatever. if at the end of the day u wanna hurt him, fine. hurt me, fine. go ahead. i hope it gets to you in the end. i hope tt you will forever remember tt youve done something to hurt people. maybe if u had a conscience u would realise. well, maybe. im tired. im off to do some.. nvm. as if u of all ppl wud care.

whee_

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Wednesday, January 21, 2004

hey.

havent been updating for a week now so i guess this is a gd time to just type in a quick update of things.

well.. yesterday was the interhouse talent time thing, and moor won the whole event. yes you heard me rite, they won something. hullett won the snr section and got 4th for the jnr section and get this, we got overall.. fourth.

so im pretty much quite disappointed. im satisfied with our success in the snr section cos i worked darn hard to make sure i could get the dance right, esp since i only learnt running man like on saturday. so im pretty much quite okay with that part of yesterday but im seriously pretty sad abt the jnr team and esp our overall placing. so anyway, moor got first. buckley 2nd. morrison 3rd. we fourth. and bayley last.

sigh. wad a horrible day. after that we went to daniel's place to jam for awhile afterwhich everyone had to leave and all. hmm.. i feel abit sad now really. after learning funk it has turned out to b rlly fun but therell be not another chance for me to funk till goodness noes when. oh well. sigh. on the other hand, at least now i can comfortably suan mister barj. big thanks go to mister yabs and mister kiat and a huge huge thanks goes to mister chinks and mister hulz for teaching me the steps~

erm lets see.. chionh picked on me again. my name was the first called when she asked for contributions for some three gorges dam thingy, something tt many ppl didnt bother to do and she knew it herself. shes rlly getting on my nerves. she is so darn dumb. she sed she doesnt want to give us hw for the holidays so the hw she gives us will be for saturday and sunday. wad in the world. i think she got the phd only because the university wanted to get rid of her asap. i never tot i wud do this but i rlly miss yaksy now. sigh. i hate tt chionh. i rlly rlly do.

sigh anw i gtg now. ill be back later at nite, hopefully with sumthing to blog abt. ive been doing nothing today 'cept for reading the abridged version of homers the iliad. cyas den. happy cny.

whee_

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Wednesday, January 14, 2004

sigh

so busy, so busy. just some quick updates and all okay? i rlly cant find the time to do a proper update of sorts. i noe ive been saying that i will do a proper update one of dese days for like forever but i rlly rlly dont have the time and for that im rlly rlly srry. ill try my best ok?

anw:

i passed math! both a and e math. did quite well in my standards for a math (a v gd a1!!) and did not too badly for e math (a b3, which isnt very gd i noe but i usually fail math so anythings an improvement). was qt disappointed that tls didnt say anything abt it, esp since i was lowest in class for amath last year. sigh. oh well. i guess i have to do this w/o encouragement if anything.

i dont like dr c. so there. on my first official geog lesson she alrd freakd me out by knowing my name. this after she had never seen me b4 and she still haddnt know the names of most of 4T. then today sshe was very rude to me. you c, yesterday we had to watch this tape and i wasnt available so she wanted to schedule another viewing, the 3rd one to b exact. so its like vbery inconvinient for her rite? and for me too lahh since i had to effectively come to sch at 7am (not a prob since im usually in sch by 6.40).

but anw i sed why dont she dont trouble herself cos we can just get the notes from other ppl. then u noe wad she sed? "i knew azizul would say that. it reflects alot about his character" sigh. i dont even noe wad i did wrong this time. its like.. she is dooming me to a bad year alrd. i have no mood for geog lessons anymore this year. today i went to c mdm mas to get notes for nat resource. ive resolved to just shut up in class and keep to myself. if she thinks im some lazy fool ill just show her up at the exams just like i showed most ppl up with my geog results last year. im pissed w tt woman dammit. i dunno wad i did seriously.

im working my ass for most things now. i rlly am trying my best for my worst subjects. im refraining from copying russells work and all cos im seriously trying to understand my stuff properly and make sure that i can do it myself when the time calls for it. only that i was severely demoralised yesterday with the physics test and all. i cuddnt do like half the ppr and was feeling damn lousy abt myself. sigh. i hate all this demoralising things. tts why ima try to ride on the wave of my gd math marks and do something abt my studies as a whole.

but im rlly demoralised lahh.. i cant bring myself to mug for tmr's geog quiz cos im just too pissed at cyh. wads her big prob man.. sigh oh well.

anw abt the whole house issue right, ive settled it for now. im not gonna do the cny shit so that saves me some trouble for now. and chinks has been an awfully big help and i cant thank you enough oh chin yu!!! yayyness for people like him. on the other hand.. lionel teo songjie i am qt annoyed at you. how can u turn me down liddat.. tts so evil.. sigh. and moor house! ilman im highly annoyed at you as well. cos like, all the other hse captains voted fo the decision to combine both divisions for the cny thingy and u veto-ed the thing as if u cuddnt care less wad we tot. tts evil. sigh.

as for debates.. jgs team selection is qt soon so im arranging my schedule so tt i can go for the trainings and stuff. i dun want my entire debating life for the last 6mths or so go to waste just because i cant manage my time with 200% effectiveness just cos its impossible. well.. ill c wad i can do. okok, ive gotta run now. catch up with ya soon. byeebyee``~

whee_

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Friday, January 09, 2004

i hate this so fking much i really really do. life is so screwd up. how cud i have had both my math tests today and not pretty much knowing abt it until it was too late? sigh. this is so really screwd up. and i have a ton of homework to do. every subject but lit and half hist i have homework to complete. and most of them is by this weekend. and tmr is alrd gone due to jric and raffles trail.

sigh. i wish i wasnt so stupid. then maybe ill have more time to give to my various commitments instead of having to attend all the remedials meant to remediate my ailing brain and help me do better. dammit i dont need to know how to manage my fking time! just give me more time fuckit. im rlly dying here under this mountain of stress. being a psl is stressing me out alot as well. but not as much as the fact that i cant even commit myself properly to the things that are supposed to be important to me, namely my house n ccas.

im the house captain dammit. wtf does tt tell you? it means that im supposed to be the one giving pretty much the most to the house rite? n im fking not able to do that. the stupid cny thingy? ive not been able to do pretty much anything for it yet. sigh im fking useless dammit. and for debates? lets not even talk abt it lahh. im really sick and tired of thinking abt how 24 hours a day is not enough. i havent even had enuff time to slp adequately after the fking orientation camp for fks sake.

im dying here i really am and nobody seems to understand tt. whywhywhy. whywhywhy must things be this way. everyday of the week i alrd am supposed to have cca. and to add to that i have fking remedials to attend, on the very same fking days. howtf am i supposed to do tt? howtf am i supposed to choose? this is too hard. something must be wrong sumwhere tho i just cant figure it out. sigh. my lifes in a mess. i think ill need some time to sort everything out and rethink abt wtf im gonna do abt everything.

i cant let everyone down just cos im dying here. sigh. i shall keep tt tot in mind.

whee_

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Saturday, January 03, 2004

horrible horrible saturday yesterday was. my hatred against tt creature elango has been renewed indefinitely. i hate him through and through and through. and dont even begin to ask why. our school population already hates him anyway so wad the hell. i dun intend to go into the graphic details of what that sonofabitch did but needless to say he pissed me off again, just like the last time when he accused us of playing cards just becasuse he saw cards on the table and brought me all the way to tan siok mui even though i was the only one present there earlier that wasnt playing cards.

sigh im really tired of that man lahh. fullstop. when i finally have time to think about what to do about him i will get down to it. currently my mind is filled with thoughts about how the fuck ima finish my stupid homework. im doing the english assignment now. a pseudo book review of sorts on memoirs of a geisha by arthur golden. luckily iver finished the maths, which is realy quite an achievement though i did get some help. hahah. and since i lost my homework i cant do my geog nor phys nor chem and that sucks qt some bit.

and now i learn that i have two maths tests next week. amath on wednesday and emath on friday. sigh. wednesday can skip because of sec one camp but the one on fri.. sigh. oh and now i got tls for both e and a math.. terrible. well be seeing him everyday cos hes not only my form teacher but we have maths everyday except tuesday on odd weeks. how horrible is that. sigh.

ok ive got a huge headache now so i think ill blog summore later tonite, if i even have anything to blog about in the first place. got religous class in awhile.. something qt irrelevant after class chalet and all. ah wdv. i hate life. cya guys soon then.. i gtg pack for the camp soon as well. lets hope the camp works out to be fine.

whee_

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Friday, January 02, 2004

hi.

i noe i noe, i havent blogged in a very very long time. but the hols were really quite boring and not the stuff of blogs. at least, nothing that id feel comfortable in writing here. oh well today was the first day of school. met my sec ones; its a love hate relationship. they get on my nerves alot. a real whole lot.

in fact my class won the distinction of being the only class to have been pumped on the first day of school by yours truly of course. cos theey were insolent and rude. so they deserved it, more or less. and cos we pumped them in the middle of the track, everyone saw it and knew about it and i got scolded. oh well. life.

on the other hand hazmi said my bag sucked. well indirectly. and im pissed. yes hazmi, w you. ah wdv nevermind. im just anoyed lahh. i kinda spent alot on the motherfucking bag. whatever. i had a gd mind to just dump my bag into the bin and fling my bottle onto the ground and break it. sigh. u must b wondering how sumthing as small as that can evoke such a big reaction but tts another story for another day.

and pepps who owe me $$ pls pay me back soon.. i got sum debts of my own to settle. sigh. kae im rlly tired rite now of alotta things, so ima take a break now and be back to blog n stuff ltr. perhaps. cya den. i promise ill b back soon.

oh yeah i gave pong my old bag. silly me tho, cos jong wanted to buy it from me.

whee_

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